F1

Formula 1 is singapore...
Although i am not a fan, somehow the hype has rub off on me somehow. Hearing so many people talking about it, especially those ticket holders.. somehow i just dun like the feeling of not able to be one of those ticket holders... maybe the glamour of first night race in the world has indeed it's attractiveness, and when it is on our own natioal soil, the more i should not have missed it the coming weekend. .. BUT i dun have the tickets.. so looks like i gonna find a way to see it somehow.. the worst would be watching it on the TV.

It took me more than half an hour driving in circles to manage to have my hair cut at suntec. although it really frustrate me how all the road blocks are getting in my way, but i have to salute the nation's effort in preparing for the Night race. By merely driving around outside the actual race roads, i can almost sense the excitement that's to come... fast cars, race babes.. and the energy the whole place transmits. i am sure it will be really spectacular!!

Anyway, it is another month from the last check up. i went for my blood test again today, so tomorrow's visit to Doc Simon will be just as importance as the previous session. CEA must come down!!! I am postitive!

Pray with me angels. :)

Wed's night!

It's weds' night, what would a normal person do at this hour?

I would think a normal singaporean would be slacking on his sofa after one day's hard work. As for me, this is just like any other night, sitting on my machine, doing the daily regime that's required for better health.

The trip to greece especialy Santorini is fantastic, but i guess it was a little bit too long for me, i have missed 10days from my regime. It's really bad... after i came back last friday, i have been busy trying to recondition my body right. and i guess i will stay away form trips for a while, in fact ecerything else can wait, but my regime needs consistency to maximise the good effect.

Anyway, while i was in greece, looking at all the 3000 years old ruins like temples etc did provoke some really deep thoughts... whilepeople who are familiar with history will know how civilisation spread from the east to the west.. and while the once grand and majestic temples and struture ruins i had witness at Athens are still an attraction that marvels anyone who visits, it also reminded me how everything else will fade away but God's word will always remain true.

Some how, I just felt enormous amount of love and affections by God, family and friends through out the trip. Truth is, despite of all the troubles, i am blessed! Above every good things, i am so thankful for the clarity of mind, that i am abled to stand above all the difficulties.

Packing for Greece

I have used the whole morning packing for Greece.

Gone are the days when i can just easily dump some essentials into the luggage bag, and off i can go.

It is the third trip of the year, and each time i have to pack literally everything i am using and eating here into the luggage. it is really a hassle, and i guess i am also asking for it since i can always say no to all the travels. But all the trips from company to japan, toronto and athens are all hard to resist; and surprisingly i always got better after the last two trips, so i would think this greece trip will do the same.

i guess taking my mind off from the problems i have definitely help to calm my inner soul.
Getting away from the daily chores in singapore, Seeing beautiful scenaries and people, amazed by God's wonderfully creations all rejuvenate my spirit.

I am looking forward to beautiful athens and santorini...but before that i will have to endure the 15 hours flight by turkish air.. and mentioning turkish air is something i really can't understand, why in the world Hsbc has to stinge on this!! The new management is more and more unbecoming! This is totally not acceptable! It has always been SQ or Cathay... tsk..
Anyway, i'll just hope it is going to be better than i thought, i have set my expectation really low, so hopefully the jurney won't be too bad.

Still have some more packings to do, have to make sure i bring along all the pills..

The real battle starts from now ..

I have wanted to blog this since last fri after seeing my doctor. I was caught in a mixed feeling about what i am in now.

Hmm.. it is actually good news, my doctors, sisters nerissa and i, we were all relieved to know that the CEA has dropped by 5 points from 17... it was all smiles from Doctor Simon when he told me the news. I was shouting halleluyah within.. and at the corner of my eyes, i saw tears were welling up in my sisters eyes... they should know better. from the beginning of the year untill now, they've witness how i struggled to find the right mixed of treatments... from the impossibles to the first sign of improvement, and bwtween these two years, on top of being my pillar of supports, they have also raised up 3 babies. I think i have been really lucky, i have probably the most classic family ties in act.

The moment of joy only lasted a few seconds, the months ahead are still a tough battle, and it weighs on my shoulder heavily for the past few days. i didn't want to talk about this actually. I guess after such a long haul, it is only normal i am feling tired and 'weak' within, especially knowing that this will take quite a bit of time to get 'it' totally out of my system.
I don't really have a word to describe all the mixed feelings; but i know this is only temporary. I NEED to keep doing the right things, stay on this regime, and stay out of the distractions.

Like what i have said so many times, too much is at stake! I have come so far, i will keep going! i am going to win this!