Star of Soloman

I believe they is probably only one person on this planet other than myself knows that soloman is a name i had given to myself a few years back.

Although Jerome is the name my tuition teacher gave me when i reached singapore decades ago; i seem to have this habit of using other names outside especially dealing with strangers. Among many other names that i had used periodically since primary school like peter in primary 4 (cos i really really like Peter Pan the show); Alex was the name i used when i worked part time as waiter in lower sec.. Larson when i was working in the night club as a waiter.. Harry, mark and josepth is used by me cheney and Heng whenever we met new girls..( ha those were the funniest time)... and finally My GP teacher in TPJC gave the name Leonardo, i was totally flattered cos i am such a fan to Di Caprio..

just a little back ground. years passed.. many things happened, then i came across the bible (thankfully), and God.. i come to know about Soloman, son of David, man of wisdom. In the deepest part of my heart, i had since yearned to be like Soloman. I never really tell anyone, cos it is someone i wish i can become and yet knowing i am still too far off the mark...

I came across the a pendant of the star of soloman at Santori, i bought it and kept in my drawer untill two days back i took it out and pondering if it is time to 'wear it' on, but if i do so, then i'll really have to make up my mind and do the 'right' things now... i am still divided on this.

Lately many issues had popped up.. i guess it was old problems that never really sorted out.. or rather maybe i was just consciously ignoring all the warning signs....

oh well ...

From a boy to man, i have made many mistakes and also learnt many lessons. Besides my selfless family, the good teachings from church, guidance from God, all the good and bad experiences had shaped my charactor and life. I take pride in which that i have been living a life like an open book since. I understood there is never a stone that'll not be unturned, therefore lying have been a real taboo to me and naturally i detest lies as well.
I learnt not to be so judgemental, and missing my own faults. After all, using our own yard stick to measure others, doesn't it also expose the very shortfall of our own yardstick???
I guess we don't have to keep telling people of who we are or how are, actions and endurance of time is the best limus test.
Before we even open our mouth and question other's charactor or integrity, some self examinations should be done on our own; Busy looking out faults of others, yet missing the overflowing can of worms and maggots rotting within oneself distant genuine love, friends and invites only bitterness and hypocrites.

I recognise there'll always be frictions and differences between people, and i would like to think the only way to bridge the Gap is to use one ONLY STANDARD code of conducts and values for measuring others and also for ourself. Let's be critical of ourself and be graceful to others.

In short:
If we dislike lying, don't lie.
If we want transparency, then stop hiding unpleasant secrets.
If we want trusts, earn it. and when we have it, dun abuse it.
WE always talk about privacy, i would think this only meant the space to do our own stuffs alone, own time and space, but not abuse it and doing something funny to exploit the trust and respect. ( I love my own space and privacy, but when it's openned up, it'll still be blameless and accountable)

i am easily curious but yet not ''kay bo''.
i am the biggest believer in truth.. and it'll never hurt when it's blameless. secrects are always self exposed, by natural or by divine.
I could have opened up the intentional 'hideouts' since a few months ago. There are many reasons why i did not, mainly because i am too afraid to lose what has been so imporant. And i guess star of soloman must be shining on me too,( i would like to think this way), i did not and choose not to. I stay away from it knowing i should this way. Funny thing is in the end, what's hidden was brought to light, what's unknow is known anyhow, and what's known is enough for thorough self reflection.

Murmuring to third party will only further strain any good relationship.
well, i choose, (not much a choice) instead to walk on to go near to the Star of Soloman. one step at a time, someday, i'll make it Star of my own..
And just may if it's ever possible, Hopefully God permits, i can be the Star!
Life is tough, then again it is so that we always become better... and never bitter!