Life

I remembered one particular night, when i was a boy, probably 5, sitting alone outside my house, looking up the sky that is full of stars and wondered what's is ahead for my life. That moment i believe is the beginning of my life.

I have grown and learnt that life is short, colourful and challenging yet also beautiful. I know everyone of us has a story to tell, after all, every step that we take, do leave a foot print behind.

This morning i was informed that a friend had just passed away because of CA! I wasn;t sure if i was encouraging myself or comforting my friends when i said i am ok, and that i am not affected. I thought i wasnt!
come to think of it, i was caught in a shock, i did not know how to respond to it. I kept telling myself to think positive, not be affected, there are things that are beyond my understanding!
but how could i?
Through out my way to office, i was so burdened with different kind of emotions, i was urgently thinking of someone to call... in the end i did not. It was possibly the loneliest 45 minutes.
I thought i still have two person i can relate to... but one is still not back, another one is so happens to be away at taiwan for holiday! Sigh...
It was supposed to be a good start for the week, and when i found that my lap top charger was taken way from my table, i lost my cool for probably the first time in my 3 years at hsbc. Taking it out on the secretaries was never the intention, and when i went over to apologized, i finally blurred out about what happened to my friend, my tears just could not hold it back anymore.
I needed a pat on the back! tell me that this will be over too! Tx said that i am different, and i should not be reminded of the bad, but rather think of the positive. She was right, i was very affected.

I spent the afternoon lamenting about life, went for a massage to try so sleep the burden off but to no avail.
Thankfully, a good friend came along in the evening, and a 30mins alone sitting at the open area at raffles mrt smooth out the emotional day.

I think life is so frail, and it is so real. I have to excuse myself from his wake the next two days, but my prayers and thoughts are with his family now. Truth is there are no ways to explain why certain things like this happened, and i won't pretend i know or understand, and not discouraged... But it does not contradict the fact that my God is still a good God, and that He always has everything under control.

Life is short, temporal and frail, i am not sure if i am doing all the rights things all the time, but i will try! i want to live life without regrets, and everyone should also. Let's love and be loved. Moments like this also makes me take stock of my own life. I am thankful for all that i have, my family, good friends and most importantly my health.

Life is beautiful, and should be beautiful!