Vexing

I have never been quite so lost in my thoughts before.
There seem to be one thousand things to do and sort out.

And lately, my secretary is giving me a lot of headache, she just can't work independently, always lost in her world.. which i always know.. sigh.. but why is she not learning? at times, when i found out the mess she created for me, i can almost boiled to the extend of wanting to murder someone!!! REally quite speechless, i guess i still cant count on her to do anything more than the basic filing and stuffs. I need more time to train her, which is what i dont have, what a tragic.

I guess i need some time to plan out my things properly. nothing seems right lately..
I thought of taking a break away from everything, and go somewhere and take my mind off, and then there is the H1N1 flu to worry about, where else can i go?

AM i worrying too much? maybe be i should not be thinking too much??? is there a switch on the brain? switch it off for a week, let me be normal for as short as a week, where i can live without so much worries and troubles? this is like hoping against hope?

I need to find solace in God, only in Him i can find peace, and i know i am not spending enough time on this.. it is not a habit yet? i need to expedite on this!

Am i too uptight? Gosh.. i keep thinking i am losing it...
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