I have many ways to do self therapy, to swing myself back to the mood of happiness. It works me well, until recent months. I have the strong urge to have something different; to be less constraint, to loosen up of sorts.
Well, and i did, i bought a new car, a convertible, to fulfill one of those things that i always want. I have been always careful, cautious to be exact even though i appear otherwise, and contrary to what many of my friends thought, i happened to be really down to earth. Buying the car took me very long to make the call, finances and practicalities, in the end, on the irony, it is the uncertainties ahead that push me to "Just Do It". ( I am never quite a car person, well, a convertible is every boy's ideal ride isn't it?)
And i have another break from my routine self, i almost stopped work for a while now, attending only those important appointments and meetings. It was a little uncomfortable for a while, having a unproductive week usually would have put me in red alert, not to mention one whole month? The fear of losing the 'mojo' at work still pinch me quite a bit, i can never go to the office without looking at the production board. sigh... hahah.. at times like this i find myself really really really complicatedly and beautifully made.
I am not sure when i can be back to myself again, but with the operation on 3rd Aug coming, including the recuperation period, i guess this break is gonna take another month. To be honest, idling is not necessarily a bad thing for me, considering the fact that i am actually fighting to stay alive now, a total break from my routine should be healthy. In a ideal world, of course it is!!! Problem is i am living in an imperfect one. :(@#%#%@#%&#$^$@!#@%
I have certain peace in my current change of routine, somehow i am also searching for a greater purpose and calling, i thought there must be also another way to leave my foot prints.
Repeating swimming, gym, yoga this week again, i have to be in the best shape for my op, and the rest can wait i guess.
Monday, July 27, 2009
Thursday, July 9, 2009
Thoughts
There is never a doubt that being alive is a blessing.
We are are brought into this world for a purpose. Yet sometimes when i walk past the foreign workers, it always set me thinking. Are we are all born equal? Really?
Staying in Singapore shield many of us from witnessing the many sufferings around the world. Yes, we'll sigh for the the moment when we read the news, and quickly we are back to our world. We have to! need to! All of us can feel, and empathized, but isn't that the easiest part? i mean, even animals have emotions right?
And then of course a good fraction of us will do something more than feel the feel by extending our time and money to different causes. Make a little difference one step at a time. i like this group of people of course, after all imagine if everyone in this world can do this, wouldn't it make this world a better place?
There is another class of people, who devote their life for a greater cause. This group is a minority naturally, rightfully so, because if everyone were to do 'volunteering', then i am afraid economy will not grow, this world will stagnant instead right?
On the first look, it seems like quite an easy equation. We all do our best to make a living, and when we can, contribute a bit of our time and money to the society or the world, and when we have enough of all the desires of the world, we will devote our life fully to 'save' the world. In such equation, no one will be born poor one day, we will indeed born equal then.
Reality and ideals never quite cross their paths often enough, especially so in this case. We have probably forgotten that man are all birthed with flaws; "desires'' of a human heart often drive us towards to the seven sins, greed, lust, gluttony etc... and if only it is stopped there! but it does not, we witness War, poverty, crimes and all the brokenness this world offers, all are the results of our selfish exploits at the expenses of other people, other company, other race, other country and the list goes on. As long as it is 'other', it doesn't matter? what if we are also other side's 'other'? does this explain the ceaseless struggles and brokenness in this world?
So the problem still lies with us right?
I have heard very often' it is my life ' from many people, and even myself. But is it true that we own the rights to our life? Maybe? or maybe not? One thing is certain i believe, that is we are all born for a purpose, and that purpose is definitely not for ourselves, but for others!!! Take a simple look at how this world works, when we plant a seed, we will reap the fruit someday. Sowing and reaping is an eternal true principal.
The thought of the day, our life is not our own, it's co-owned by the people around us, whether or not we fulfill our purpose, it really depends if we make a positive contribution to our social world. Every footstep will leave a footprint, have i left mine? how many more to go?
We are are brought into this world for a purpose. Yet sometimes when i walk past the foreign workers, it always set me thinking. Are we are all born equal? Really?
Staying in Singapore shield many of us from witnessing the many sufferings around the world. Yes, we'll sigh for the the moment when we read the news, and quickly we are back to our world. We have to! need to! All of us can feel, and empathized, but isn't that the easiest part? i mean, even animals have emotions right?
And then of course a good fraction of us will do something more than feel the feel by extending our time and money to different causes. Make a little difference one step at a time. i like this group of people of course, after all imagine if everyone in this world can do this, wouldn't it make this world a better place?
There is another class of people, who devote their life for a greater cause. This group is a minority naturally, rightfully so, because if everyone were to do 'volunteering', then i am afraid economy will not grow, this world will stagnant instead right?
On the first look, it seems like quite an easy equation. We all do our best to make a living, and when we can, contribute a bit of our time and money to the society or the world, and when we have enough of all the desires of the world, we will devote our life fully to 'save' the world. In such equation, no one will be born poor one day, we will indeed born equal then.
Reality and ideals never quite cross their paths often enough, especially so in this case. We have probably forgotten that man are all birthed with flaws; "desires'' of a human heart often drive us towards to the seven sins, greed, lust, gluttony etc... and if only it is stopped there! but it does not, we witness War, poverty, crimes and all the brokenness this world offers, all are the results of our selfish exploits at the expenses of other people, other company, other race, other country and the list goes on. As long as it is 'other', it doesn't matter? what if we are also other side's 'other'? does this explain the ceaseless struggles and brokenness in this world?
So the problem still lies with us right?
I have heard very often' it is my life ' from many people, and even myself. But is it true that we own the rights to our life? Maybe? or maybe not? One thing is certain i believe, that is we are all born for a purpose, and that purpose is definitely not for ourselves, but for others!!! Take a simple look at how this world works, when we plant a seed, we will reap the fruit someday. Sowing and reaping is an eternal true principal.
The thought of the day, our life is not our own, it's co-owned by the people around us, whether or not we fulfill our purpose, it really depends if we make a positive contribution to our social world. Every footstep will leave a footprint, have i left mine? how many more to go?
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
