Being Earnest..

Its been a long while since my last entry, i have been busy with life like always. But not like any other normal person dealing with routines, rather literally dealing with "life", my life, or rather my health. I have long established the fact that no health means nothing else.

Physically, i have not been fantastic, medical report lately is not too encouraging, the too frequent indigestion problems from the operation took its toll on my weight, I did the necessary adjustment, i slow myself down. Pulled out of SOT, slow down my pace daily, and in everything that i do of course. Strict diet have to come back on, expensive TCM herbs has to be taken day and night too. One moment of careless negativity will throw myself back into the cyclic depressive mode, my great hope for the future and happiness that is within reach could vanish in that few seconds of demise.

But being earnest, i never allow myself to sit in helplessness for long, anything can be broken or saddled with impossibilities, but not my heart nor my will, and absolutely not my faith.

Two weeks back, i was impressed with my heart of 3 miracles that will come, and one that detailed about my purpose for this life gets clearer everyday when i talk and walk about it. All that has happened, the 6 years of journey found its purpose and value at last. I am excited and even nervous whenever i thought of it, yet it also drives me on every single minute. The platform and the stage that will allow me to fulfill all these takes enormous efforts (yet not out of my half day work routine!!) and also determination, most importantly all the helps i can get. thankfully, all those that i called, are equally excited with me! I keep repeating it, but for that to be possible, i need all my friends and clients help, i need referrals and new businesses and deals consistently till December. Looking at my fellow competitors, achieving it needs something special, something extraordinary, and like coco says, i will need wings! but i doubt it can be grown on me, i would relate it to the wings of angels... i need to call all the angels in heaven and on earth (you?)

Well, the importance of being earnest is to keep going on and on and on!!! I need human batteries, rally cries and roaring supports!

Immortality!! who is with me?!!