for a very very long time, i have been constantly bombarded between the two...
What is faith?
what is denial?
yesterday's visit with my medical oncologist has once again thrown me right into the turmoil of the two. Updated results show that CEA is still going up, the very indicator that i have been watching closely. So it is bad news, it was disheartening, after almost 4 months of intensive natural therapy, things are just not getting better, CA activities are somehow increasing.
So what now i asked?
denial will be easy! just believe in God, believe things will just get better, the result may not be 100% accurate anyway! is it right? abosolutely wrong, i have to drill this hard into myself!
Faith? this is tough, yet is the only light in tunnel. the lastest result means something else needs to be done, a different way, different regime, different method possibly... i am not too sure about it, but i'll find a way out! i mean there is defintely a way out. i'll keep trying, keep trying, keep trying!
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Keep going, bro!
Quoting Randy Pausch, brick walls are meant to keep only those who do not want something badly enough ... THE other people, not us! Definitely not you!
YES! there is definitely a way out my friend =)and i believe u can =) ganbatte ne!
We'll never give up on life! No matter how hard the route is. I know and believe that you are more than able :)
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