Recent few nights, if you were to notice, the sky is extremely clear, almost cloudless,with the night breeze, and the stars, everything seem so wonderful, life is indeed beautiful.
The idea of going to bible school for half a year is slowly settling in, i am really kind of looking forward to it. There is this sense of assurance, somehow i felt that by taking the 6 months course, i will go near God; And go near God means i will be in good hands, i will be able to cast all fears unto His hands... This coming 6 months from march, it is like a 'refuge camp' for me, and there are moments in the days, i hope i can quickly retreat into it.
Not that things are not doing well, on the contrary, work is slowly moving back to the right momentum. i am very much getting used to my 'new' body too, although at times the inconvenience gets to my nerve and drives me nuts, but i have gotten over the self-acceptance phase, moving on it is really to live the best out of this life.
These two nights of star gazing, got me into deep thoughts, (i mean i am easily into deep thoughts anyway) There are things that are within reach if i were to take the courage to stretch out my hands, yet at the same time my rationale and that little fear held me back almost immediately when i was about to move my hands. I find myself keep going back to ground zero. So guess maybe only bible school will show a way, or rather God will show a path.
Meanwhile, the nights with all shinning stars, like a symbol of destinies, endless and going into infinities..
All i wanna do now is to seek for mine, and it begins with star gazing...
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