This is a friend of mine favourite song by Guns n Roses.
And what i gonna said for the following has nothing to do with the song actually, it is just that whenever i think of the song it'll remind me of that friend, he always send us a message to welcome the November Rain almost every year on the 1st of November..
So, coming to the month end, i think this is one unusual month that's full of hiccups. It is a month of disappointments and let downs, also a month of amazing grace that i experienced from God. Nope, CEA did not dropped to a miraculous level that i hoped for, but nonetheless it retreated one point to 12. Given some basic understanding of the natural of the problem, it is already quite miracle i am at where i am, i am grateful and thankful. BUT BUT.. i know and i know, full recovery will come, CEA will drop to 0, I will be healed completely sooner than later, i have change my mindset about it, it'll come fast, and i am and will stay prepared for it to take place.
I have one good day, clear some unwanted expectations, brought a friend to church, and HA... i played almost 40 mins of 'competitive football' on a friendly game with current DHS school team.
i am having a bit of pains on the kidneys, due to over strained... but nothing can describe the feelings i had when i was on the pitch. i was savouring every single minute of it in the late afternoon.
So goodbye November rain, hello charismasy December.
I am trilled to say this, life is beautiful, mine is indeed yet to begin.
Sunday, November 30, 2008
Thursday, November 27, 2008
Time of the month
It's conclusive, the last week of the month has become a week of anxiety, restlessness and maybe little bit bad tempered!
Unconsciously it is also a week when i become so ineffective at work that i dreaded of going to office.
This cycle has to come to an end soon, and i am looking forward to tomorrow for a good report.
Very long time ago, someone close would remember i always said with Saint Michael on my left, Saint Peter on my right, moses at my front, Jesus behind me, I am invincible! :)
Unconsciously it is also a week when i become so ineffective at work that i dreaded of going to office.
This cycle has to come to an end soon, and i am looking forward to tomorrow for a good report.
Very long time ago, someone close would remember i always said with Saint Michael on my left, Saint Peter on my right, moses at my front, Jesus behind me, I am invincible! :)
Happy Thanks Giving
Can't believe how time has passed so fast... it is already going into december, and soon new year!
It is like i don;t even have timeto catch my breathe, take a kitkat, sit at the side of the spring, and worrying nothing.
I would think we are all the same creation, i.e same kind of creatures; lamenting about life, on what could be done or could have done, and the many possbilities that were left undone, that constantly bugging our mind.
It is true that we cannot do much about the past, but the experiences of failures, mistakes and many lessons should never be forgotten, else wouldn't it meant we have wasted our past years??
In Life, we all have our transitional years, hopefully so for everyone; it is when we finally wake up, took the ownership and responsibilities that have been tasked upon us and do the best we can for the present and of course the future!
Time is indeed merciless, it forgives no one, wait for no one, it is either we ride on it's wave or be prepared to sweep to the sideline and be forgotten. It is afterall, our choice to make!
Anyway, Happy Thanks Giving for all the people that loved me and those that i love!
I am thankful for the grace on my mistakes, and all the experiences that helped to shape who i am; I am thankful for today, the very moment now; I am thankful for the tomorrows, it'll be better, much better, it'll be filled with hope, love and good health.
It is like i don;t even have timeto catch my breathe, take a kitkat, sit at the side of the spring, and worrying nothing.
I would think we are all the same creation, i.e same kind of creatures; lamenting about life, on what could be done or could have done, and the many possbilities that were left undone, that constantly bugging our mind.
It is true that we cannot do much about the past, but the experiences of failures, mistakes and many lessons should never be forgotten, else wouldn't it meant we have wasted our past years??
In Life, we all have our transitional years, hopefully so for everyone; it is when we finally wake up, took the ownership and responsibilities that have been tasked upon us and do the best we can for the present and of course the future!
Time is indeed merciless, it forgives no one, wait for no one, it is either we ride on it's wave or be prepared to sweep to the sideline and be forgotten. It is afterall, our choice to make!
Anyway, Happy Thanks Giving for all the people that loved me and those that i love!
I am thankful for the grace on my mistakes, and all the experiences that helped to shape who i am; I am thankful for today, the very moment now; I am thankful for the tomorrows, it'll be better, much better, it'll be filled with hope, love and good health.
Sunday, November 23, 2008
Convinced!
Asia conference is finally over, Sat came and passsed without a bang, But very importantly, i am still on track for full recovery, i received this vision in full through out the whole week.
My dears friends, thanks for praying and fasting for me, like what i said, it did not happened with a bang, but it is still taking place right here right now. It is a process, takes a bit of time and patience, some day, soon, i will give thanks for the fruits of all you whom have laboured so hard in prayers for me! Yes soon!! i believe, so keep praying with me!
I was even more encouraged when Neo and nerissa were there to offer their support and even to offer their prayers in their own ways for me. I felt blessed, and more importantly, i have their salvation in mind whilst they have supports for me in theirs. The day will come too!
So it is a rare week where i hardly get to have a good rest, it's a week without weekends for almost all the attendees, i had hoped to attend to learn more, but physically it was just not possible.
In general, it is a great event, good conference, tonight's highlight before A.R Bernard's another mind blowing service has to be the performances of a lot of celebrities incluing JJ Lin, whom also shared the goodness of God in their life with us. It makes me feel so small, makes me wanna get healed quickly and do something, to make this life count, to be involved!!!
I am convinced of what i should do, will do, must do!
My dears friends, thanks for praying and fasting for me, like what i said, it did not happened with a bang, but it is still taking place right here right now. It is a process, takes a bit of time and patience, some day, soon, i will give thanks for the fruits of all you whom have laboured so hard in prayers for me! Yes soon!! i believe, so keep praying with me!
I was even more encouraged when Neo and nerissa were there to offer their support and even to offer their prayers in their own ways for me. I felt blessed, and more importantly, i have their salvation in mind whilst they have supports for me in theirs. The day will come too!
So it is a rare week where i hardly get to have a good rest, it's a week without weekends for almost all the attendees, i had hoped to attend to learn more, but physically it was just not possible.
In general, it is a great event, good conference, tonight's highlight before A.R Bernard's another mind blowing service has to be the performances of a lot of celebrities incluing JJ Lin, whom also shared the goodness of God in their life with us. It makes me feel so small, makes me wanna get healed quickly and do something, to make this life count, to be involved!!!
I am convinced of what i should do, will do, must do!
Saturday, November 22, 2008
Healing
Today has finally arrived!
A year and a half back, Benny Hinns was holding his healing service at Singapore indoor stadium. I had wanted to go so much in the midst of under going treatment with chemo and radiation. a last minute virus attack, had my fever shot up to 41 degrees in 3 consecutive days in the hospital, and when i realised that what could be my 'only hope' was dashed by the fever, i was sent into a hopeless pit.
I remembered Nerissa and my mum and sisters were all there, that was the moment i can't hide my fear and hopelessness anymore, i broke down, and tears started to flow down my cheeks. I thought that even God has forsaken me, i was losing hope.
Looking back, maybe everything happened for a reason, thankfully i pulled through from the virus attack. The year long battle with CA can be exhaustive, i know i have come a long way, at the same time i have grown to learn more about God, i learnt to let go, and let God. The journey towards Him is still a long way, but i am just as thankful that i am finally on the right track.
Today has finally arrived, i am anticipating great things and miracles to happen, i am hopeful, and even while i am sitting here, it is already happening...
Nonetheless, the unchanging fact is that God is sovereign! Is grace! Is love! My faith is as small as a mustard seed still, but i believe and i know tonight it will explode!
A year and a half back, Benny Hinns was holding his healing service at Singapore indoor stadium. I had wanted to go so much in the midst of under going treatment with chemo and radiation. a last minute virus attack, had my fever shot up to 41 degrees in 3 consecutive days in the hospital, and when i realised that what could be my 'only hope' was dashed by the fever, i was sent into a hopeless pit.
I remembered Nerissa and my mum and sisters were all there, that was the moment i can't hide my fear and hopelessness anymore, i broke down, and tears started to flow down my cheeks. I thought that even God has forsaken me, i was losing hope.
Looking back, maybe everything happened for a reason, thankfully i pulled through from the virus attack. The year long battle with CA can be exhaustive, i know i have come a long way, at the same time i have grown to learn more about God, i learnt to let go, and let God. The journey towards Him is still a long way, but i am just as thankful that i am finally on the right track.
Today has finally arrived, i am anticipating great things and miracles to happen, i am hopeful, and even while i am sitting here, it is already happening...
Nonetheless, the unchanging fact is that God is sovereign! Is grace! Is love! My faith is as small as a mustard seed still, but i believe and i know tonight it will explode!
Thursday, November 20, 2008
Moving office
Come sunday, i will be moving back to Hsbc main building in raffles place.
Good, cos it is better for me ..
bad.. cos there are much more hidden cost in moving back, i have some mixed feelings about this, but all in all, of cos it is better than staying at singpost with the rest.
Oh well.. the toughest part i think is the moving, packing and then unpacking.. IT IS SO TIREDING<<<..
Good, cos it is better for me ..
bad.. cos there are much more hidden cost in moving back, i have some mixed feelings about this, but all in all, of cos it is better than staying at singpost with the rest.
Oh well.. the toughest part i think is the moving, packing and then unpacking.. IT IS SO TIREDING<<<..
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
my heart weeps..
Asia conference has started...
Although i was late, but the whole set up and atmosphere had me blown away anyway.
Pastor today shared some insights about the different 'space' of the church world, the society, and the influential groups, and in the midst of the excitement and exuberance, through pastor, i can almost feel jesus' heart towards people, towards me.
My heart weeps, when I felt His unconditional love, especially when some friends have been telling me that they are going to fast for me on saturday.
It is only 3 more days...
I need all the help and encouragement. who else is with me?
Although i was late, but the whole set up and atmosphere had me blown away anyway.
Pastor today shared some insights about the different 'space' of the church world, the society, and the influential groups, and in the midst of the excitement and exuberance, through pastor, i can almost feel jesus' heart towards people, towards me.
My heart weeps, when I felt His unconditional love, especially when some friends have been telling me that they are going to fast for me on saturday.
It is only 3 more days...
I need all the help and encouragement. who else is with me?
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