The Pursuit of Happiness

Coming to the end of 2009, the pursuit of happiness has been constantly on my mind when i am at the same time recuperating from the operation. The physical changes are indeed irreversible, but my thoughts, perspective and life maybe is at the cross road for major changes, for good that is for sure. By how, or what means, i am still just as clueless as the time when i was still a boy.

It is week 4 now since i am discharged, i have probably skipped a few steps in getting back the strength, somehow maybe God just put me on a fast track of recovery. my weight is almost back to pre-op level, and i guess a few more weeks i might be able go to my ideal weight of say 68kg or 70kg? It is not that important la, i am more anxious about what really that i can do to live an even more meaningful life.

To get some clues, lately i am doing a lot of people watching, or people observation activities. I looked into my closest friend's life, or even the strangers on the street, i pondered about life all the time. It is very easy to forget the meaning of life when we are always busy in and out of the weekly routines, and in a place like singapore, it is even harder to take a breather, and maybe for the first time i did question myself, if this is the place i will dwell and live my dreams, the place that i will find 'happiness'. Then again to uproot me from here will take more than courage or wild dreams, i am too emotionally attached to many dear friends here.

We are essentially the same kind of creature, the ultimate aim in life is to search for that specially someone or something to fill the void or the puzzle of happiness; of course, everyone has different definition on this, and naturally different means and ways of achieving their goals. There are are no right or wrong ways i think, it is purely the difference of perspective, what matter most to me is always how we walk through the journey, and during that walk, the foot prints that were left behind has it encouraged or discouraged people. Maybe it is too far fetched to think that we can change the world, but it is never too hard to make a little difference one person at a time. And i am fortunate enough say that i have quite a number of them in my on going journey now.

I guess what i am saying here today is no matter what are our dreams, goals, and how we are living, we should never forget our innocence of pure joy and happiness. And i am finding back mine now!