blues..

Today is one of the rare blue day. I woke up feeling blue, came home from the hospital feeling blue, and still blue after my afternoon nap.. and it just doesn't get better into the day.. it is one big blue blue day.

And in such a blue day, somehow i will just get melancholy about life, love and happiness. It is a huge topic, and i am no expert in them all.

Life comes in all forms, while some are struggling with basic needs, city dweller like me has the luxury of lamenting about it AGAIN; it is ironic, on one hand i am thankful for who i am and what i have, on the other hand, i just wished to have a simpler form of life.. it is complicated, and the blues sure not helping it.

Love? At one moment, i can tell a friend to go for it, to stop procrastinating and take actions, i said sure maybe someone better are out there, but if it is me, i were never hesitate, for i know only i can love the girl the way i love, and make her the happiest person in the planet... Sounds like some scripts right?
Then the next moment i would say if you really love the girl, you can't be selfish, you gotta let her go, for loving someone is not about owning her, it is to make sure she is happy even without you. nuts isn't it?!!? So now we know, comes to love issues, never come to me for advise, i will only confuse you! i am confused myself too.

Happiness? maybe it is Good Life + Love = happiness?
I think happiness it's to have no worries about the next meal and the next next of cos, have someone u truly loves and she is really happy! have two beautiful little angels and stays in a really cozy flat. Grow old and watch the children grow up and have their own families, still holding on to your partners wrinkled hands, take the slow stroll along the park, stop by the bench underneath the palm trees, watch the sun set ... how nice right?

If i can i will write and live in my own fairy tale and never wake up from it!!!!
that is not possible of cos. Darn!

and my blues are not going away!!! looks like it's gonna sleep with me tonight...